Full of Emotions

So I think I have passed through every emotion known to man in the past week. Ending it on a good note though always helps. Watching the boys was rough but at times was so sweet like when I was doing dishes and Connor walks up and tells me he has a secret for me and told me he had to whisper it in my ear. His secret what "Jessica", know this Connor always forgets my name and so the fact he remembered my name made me so happy "I love you" oh my gosh it was so so so sweet. 

Reilly has been sick and had a rough night last night poor poor girl. Also Brayden was sick while I was watching him as well. I have decided that watching sick kids is the most heartbreaking thing ever because you just have to sit there and watch them not feel good and not be able to do like anything to help. Its so sad! 

Another way cute quote by Brayden "Jessica why don't angels wear pants?" ha ha ha I started to laugh and he looked at me with this I'm totally serious expression. Jennifer just got some new angel statues and is shows their little fanny and Brayden made me turn them so he didn't have to look at it while he was eating. Makes me wonder how many naked angel statues he has seen ha ha so funny!!

I made dinner on Saturday and Lyndsey still tells me how good it is. If that doesn't boost your self esteem what else would? She is so sweet and does everything she can to make others happy. She will be such a good mom one day :). Today I took a bath (one of my weaknesses) and ate graham crackers with nutella and I told the girls I was indulging myself tonight and they asked what that meant and I told them it was like you do what you really want to do even if it isn't the best thing to do (like eating nutella probably wasn't my best choice) and Reilly looks and me and says " I want to do what I want!" ha ha uh oh...

Each day I'm learning to cope with the homesickness a little more and more. There are some times where it still seems to overwhelm me but then something happens to make me know that I am where I need to be and that it is so worth it to be learning growing and loving. They are so sweet and I really enjoy being here. I still get phone calls of people asking me again if I will be their nanny and I am so happy I got the families I did they are so awesome and exactly what I needed.