What to do?

My last little while at Jills was pretty bittersweet, I got to really get close to Lyndsey but at the same time it was getting a little closer to going home. I packed all my stuff up and moved it over to the friends house I had thanksgiving at a week ago Thursday. I got to spend some time with them before I flew back up home. I am here for Christmas while I decide what to do next. I can either move back home and try to find another job or go back down to our friends house and live with them since they offered me a room there. I don't have any permanent jobs either place and they both have their ups and downs. I thought I had all the answers and then life just throws it back in my face that I don't. Now I am back to square one with no job and Christmas just a week away. My family is going to our friends house for New Years and I will either just be staying or would be packing up my stuff and coming home. I'm still in the process of deciding, and yet at this time of year when my problems seem so little compared to how much is going on around me, and me being so worried about me makes me feel selfish. Maybe part of my decision making should be less me and more of others.

All I know is my heart is torn it two. I love being home and being with my family but at the same time the Powells have really become a second family to me and I really feel at home there. I am trying to weigh all my options and be absolutely sure that I pick the right decision and I know that I can't make this decision by myself and am trying to get all the help I can. I was so sure I would be going back to Arizona but now waking up today it makes me so sad to have to make a decision to pick.

On a lighter note I love this time of year it absolutely makes me so happy. It is just magical I got to go to a family Christmas party on Monday and got to go see lights at the temple and it was just amazing to be with my family and get to do something like that together. I also got the chance last night to go drive around with a friend and look at all the lights around town which was also very exciting. In our house we are still working trying to get our Christmas tree up when usually we try to be the first house with it up. Everyone at my house is just always so busy and no one has had time. Hopefully we get it up by the end of this week!!

Angela has a band concert tonight I am so excited to go see it and see some of the people that will be there. Being home really is amazing and I really have no room to complain I am just so amazed at how much I really have been given and that I get opportunities to choose what is best for me. I will update with my final decision and with all the rest of things to update. Hopefully I will be in a much better mood ha ha. Merry Christmas!

Thanksgiving brings changes.

I went over to some really really good friends of our families for Thanksgiving. They are closer to me then any cousins I have so thats what we call each other. Now that is cleared up I got to spend the whole weekend there. Amber comes from this family and it was so good to spend time with her and to stay up late talking and watching movies just to fall asleep and wake up and try to watch them the next day falling asleep all over again. She is my replacement sister as I have been down here and really love having her around. They took such good care of me while I was there they really are a blessing to me!

Now for the bad news, once I got home from this fantastic weekend it was to the realization that I would need to be leaving my home here with Jill and the girls. I am so sad that things didn't work out they way they were supposed to and have already shed some tears even though I'm sure there will be more. I love them so much and have been my family here for the past 3 months. I know I will always try to visit them when I am down this way and will keep in touch. They are really great and it will be sad to leave but right now that is what I need to do. Things didn't work out with Jennifer and I need something that will be paying me more money so I can go to Europe and save up for my mission. I will be going home for the holidays and trying to figure out my next step after that.

Here are the pictures of Thanksgiving and my weekend with Amber and her family.

Dinner done now its time for after dinner talk.

The wonderful hostess and cook of my weekend Sue!

Lounging on the couch.

Now the weekend begins!

Taylor  at the shaved ice place not eating any shaved ice...

Amber and I were twinners it was so fun.

Me being the funny face person like usual...

Mmm shaved ice

Ambers idea :)

It really was a fun weekend! It was a good weekend without having to worry about kids at all and getting a little break. Even though at the time I didn't know I would be having a bigger break then was to be expected from the girls :( I know things happen for a reason and I will be ok even if sometimes it doesn't seem like I will. There are harder things out there to go through and its time to move forward.

Making Memories

So I haven't updated in awhile but now that I am getting to it I have a couple things to post! We had some fun times recently. These girls are so much fun and I am really happy I have got to get to know them and have them feel comfortable with me.

We made a fort while Jill was visiting Brent and it was just me and the girls for a couple days. Amber came and stayed with us which is always a blast.

                                                             Our Sleeping Area

                                                          

                                                            Our Game and Activity Area

The bed, Amber and Reilly

Reilly was excited!

King Blitz taking over.

Then we went to TGI Fridays and were extra giggly and took some pictures there also right after Jill got back from seeing Brent. It was so much fun and here are the pics

 

Yummy Lemons!

Reillys attack mommy time! ha ha

 

Whos eye is which?

Hmm?

Got all three of them so far?

Last one

Reilly coloring with Christmas colors!

So first eye was Jill, then Reilly, then Lyndsey and then mine. Not like that was to hard to figure out or anything but there ya go!

Then the other day since Reilly didn't have school we made a surprise tea party for Lyndsey for when she got home from school. We cooked and cut and cleaned and got dressed up. It was so much fun all it was missing was a teapot! We made place mats with our names on it that Reilly made and it was so much fun. We made caramel hazelnut cookies, chocolate milk, rolls, had fruit cheese crackers and nuts. We had it all set out and it was just so much fun.

 

 

These are memories I always want to keep with me as times are hard and sad I want to think of moments like these that just make me feel a little big happier. It really was a fun couple of weeks trying to finish all the things we started!